To Assume or not to Assume….

What do you do when you feel like someone has an interest in you but you are not interested in them in the same way?

I mean, these are the types of situations that haunt my dreams. I have a hard enough time trying to conduct myself in social situations but awkward situations like this make me want to melt away like Alex Mac. I’m used to being on the other side; the one who has an interest that is not reciprocated. But this side is not any better.

I don’t want to hurt the person. I don’t like being the reason someone’s feelings get hurt though it’s inevitable. I mean, for all I know this is just his way of being nice and a really good friend.

But the signs are there….

I guess the best thing for me to do is sit back and enjoy the friendship. If he makes that left (and by making that left I do mean verbally admitting to me that he has feelings for me, or he likes me, or whatever), then I will deal with it then. Tell him that I love spending time with him and he’s a good friend, but that I don’t want anything more than a friendship.

I mean, on the opposite end I would want someone to be that honest with me. Does it hurt? Yes. But, I would rather be hurt with the truth than hurt with a lie.

New Message

Yesterday, the Loan Company sent me an email letting me know that I have a new message in my inbox. The message contained a list of all loans I have under my name and the amounts.

I love this.

It will keep me organized. I can focus on paying off one loan at a time. I can keep track of what has been paid off and what I still need to pay on. I plan on paying back the smaller amounts first and working my way up to the larger amounts. I have a certain amount I would like to pay each month (which, although is very high, has not changed). I am in the process of writing down the months each loan should be paid off.

I really feel like I can do this.

I feel like I’m in control.

And the kicker is….I got a new job today!!

It cut into my vacation but I can live with that. My family is more than understanding and happy for me although I am a little upset that our vacation week did not go as planned. The call for the job was unexpected and I am (once again) being thrown into things but I am so grateful for the opportunity. I feel more confident now about paying my student loans back way ahead of schedule.

Warning!! You’re Halfway Through Your Grace Period

That is the email I received in my inbox today from the loan company. And I still have not found a new job. My goal is to try to find a job by November (when my grace period will be over). I feel like I should be nervous but I am not. I am eager to find a better job though. I can’t live off of my current salary and my plans for life are too big for the small paychecks I get.

Thanks for the warning though Loan Company.